“What do you see?”

A question you do not want to hear when you are looking in a mirror. The last thing I want when I am looking in a mirror is to be reminded of everything I see.

At this particular moment I was getting dressed for one of my hubby’s ball games. I really can’t seem to put on my belt without a mirror. I know it sounds funny, but I always need a mirror to put my belt on. So this is what I was doing, when my husband walks in. Apparently I was looking very intently at the mirror because I did not hear him come home. He startled me a bit and and I contemplated his question. He broke through my thoughts with a startling comment:

“I bet what you see and what I see, are very different.”  

I smiled at him and he flashed me one of those “ha ha that was a good one!” looks.

As the night went on, that question kept burning in my mind. “What do you see?” I could come up with all kinds of things I see in the mirror and I’m pritty sure none of them would be very nice or pleasant to think about. I was up most of the night and this question was burning a hole by now. So, I made a list of all the things I see in the mirror.

It was a very long list so I won’t share it. I will say this though, I was disgusted with myself for even thinking some of the things I wrote down. I would never speak of anyone else that way, or even think it, shouldn’t I give myself the same respect? How about more?

This list was not what I was meant to be. This does not define who I am as a daughter of Christ. All this list does is hinder me  from becoming the women of God I am called to be, the mother, the wife I am and want to be. So I had a burning ceremony, in my kitchen sink.

Father, I know you created me for your purpose, forgive me for being selfish and putting down the body that you gave me. I am yours!!